still..

it's been almost 5 months since we broke up, and yeah guess what? i'm still loving u, yes i really do :( 
It's hard when you know you shouldn't hold on, and yet you're too in love to let go.

sometimes,i just wanna back to my past,then fix everything.i wont meet u,i wont love u,but,how can?i hope i've time machine!u just dont know how it feel to feel this way.

Sometimes I feel giving up and letting go is the right choice, but I just dont know how to deal with the pain afterwards.

i wish finding the right person wasn’t this hard..I wish finding the right person wasn’t this painful…I wish I could let go of the wrong one, so the right one could come in.i wish.....

Barbie Quotes

Barbie in The Nutcracker (2001)
"Anything is possible."

  Barbie as Rapunzel (2002)
"Love and imagination can change the world."

  Barbie of Swan Lake (2003)
"You're braver than you think."

  Barbie as The Princess And The Pauper (2004)
"Live your dream."

  Barbie in Fairytopia (2005)
"What makes you different makes you special."

  Barbie and The Magic Of Pegasus (2005)
"There is always hope."

  Barbie in Mermaidia (2006)
"Trust your true self."
 
  Barbie in The 12 Dancing Princesses (2006)
"The power of family can overcome all obstacles."

  Barbie Fairytopia: Magic Of The Rainbow (2007)
"Together, we are strong."

  Barbie as The Island Princess (2007)
"There may be miracles awaiting,They may be closer than we know,When we have love to guide us as we go."

  Barbie Mariposa (2008)
"The most beautiful thing you can be is yourself."

  Barbie and The Diamond Castle (2008)
"Friendship is the true treasure."

  Barbie in A Christmas Carol (2008)
"Keep the beauty of Christmas in your heart every day of the year."

  Barbie Presents: Thumbelina (2009)
"Even the smallest person can make a big difference."

  Barbie and The Three Musketeers (2009)
"True courage is pursuing your dream,even when everyone else says it's impossible."

  Barbie in a Mermaid Tale (2010)
"What makes you different just might be your greatest strength."

  Barbie A Fashion Fairy Tale (2010)
"Magic happens when you believe in yourself."

  Barbie A Fairy Secret (2011)
"Forgiveness lets you fly."

this is our way...

"But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?

We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over"

do you know what's the feeling when you already thinking about your future with 

someone that you really want to live with?

kadang-kadang suka enggak ngerti sama jalan Tuhan,kenapa harus gini,kenapa harus gitu,kok jadi gini,kok jadi gitu,kenapa ya Tuhan?kenapa?

kalo denger lagu Allah Peduli yang liriknya gini 

"Banyak perkara yang tak dapat ku mengerti

Mengapakah harus terjadi

Di dalam kehidupan ini

Satu perkara yang

Ku simpan dalam hati

Tiada satupun kan terjadi tanpa Allah perduli

Reff :
Allah mengerti
Allah peduli
Segala persoalan yg kita hadapi
Tak akan pernah di biarkanya ku bergumul sendiri
Sbab Allah mengerti"

tapi setiap denger lagu itu,setiap kali gue nyanyiin,gue ngerasa kayak semua rasa khawatir gue,rasa kecewa gue tuh kejawab.iya,mungkin emang gue masih belom bisa ngelewatin ini semua,masih belom paham sama apa jalan Tuhan dibalik ini semua,tapi satu yang gue yakin "Allah mengerti,Allah peduli segala persoalan yang kita hadapi" jadi,gue yakin,di balik kejadian putusnya gue sama ige pasti ada maksud dari semua ini.pasti Tuhan punya rencana lain buat gue,buat ige,yang pasti jauh lebih baik dari rencana seorang manusia.
honestly,im so tiredddd with all of this fckn pain,hurting me too much.im alone here,seeing him with his new girlfriend.wah itu nyakitin banget,tapi ya,gue bisa apa?nothing

inget janji gue enggak? "i will always love u as long as i can" so,selama gue bisa,of course i will do.if we're break up,it doesnt mean that my feel for u will stop.no! 
trust me,im always here pray for u.
 
so,intinya,seperti judul buat post ini.....THIS IS OUR WAY :''')